Sunday, April 27, 2008
My dance recital was last night, and I think it went well. Since I was in four dances, the night went by so fast. My back has been bothering me again, meaning that my left leg has been acting up, resulting in me being unable to do my left leg splits in one of my dances. That bothered me greatly. It's not a matter of flexibilty, it's my back that keeps my leg from preforming to its full ability. At least I was in the back during that time. Camila did wonderful, she's so beautiful, especially when she's onstage. She's been saying she'll quit dance after the recital, but I doubt that, she loves it too much!
Monday, April 7, 2008
I apologize ahead of time for the disjointedness of this entry. I had multiple unrelated things I wanted to talk about/mention.
Hong Kong. That's where, God willing, I'll be going this summer for those of you who may be wondering. Other than that, I don't have too much that's interesting to say, but allow me to talk to you about something that I've been thinking about for months now.
Psalm 32:10 "Many are the woes of the wicked; but the LORD's unfailing love surrounds those who trust in Him."I keep finding verses like that sprinkled throughout bible. I believe that trust is a very important factor in our faith. God constantly asks us to trust Him. He has never given me a reason to distrust Him, but somehow trust is hard. I think it's because we can have the idea that if we trust Him he'll do things that we don't want Him to do. We want the control because we don't trust that He'll make good choices. It's true that He often times does things that aren't what we'd want to do, but still, God knows best. And no matter how painful the changes He makes are, I've found that not trusting God ends up being more painful. I think trust and grace are also intertwined. Part of trusting God for me is also knowing that so long as I'm trusting Him, I don't have to be prefect. His grace is ready to catch me when I stumble.
I'll wrote a poem today that I would like to share with you.
Do you ever want for something more?
Just stare at that cup
and wish it would ease that deep feeling,
that wrench in your gut?
Or maybe wish that it would satisfy,
rather than only make your throat wet.
Do you ever need something more?
Feeling like if you don’t find it,
you’ll give up and implode
before the day is out?
Or maybe just sit down.
Sit down and drown that need in nothing.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
I was sure I was going to Hong Kong this summer, but after I sent Vinnie the email that said "Yes, I'll go" I had no peace about it. This came to a climax yesterday after I'd spent some time in prayer. I went off to go do something, and suddenly felt extremely uneasy about going to Hong Kong. Not fearful, not inadequate, but just not at peace.
So I'm praying. I haven't told Vinnie yet that I'm not going, because I'm not 100% positive that God doesn't want me to go. I still need to pray some more about it. There are other options for this summer besides Hong Kong, so I'm looking into those and praying about those too. I would love to go on the Hong Kong team, but if that's not God's will, then I don't want to go.
I'm off now, just wanted to let y'all know what's going on with me right now.